I'd like you all to welcome the new Head Coach
of The Rock, Darby Conrad.
I've decided that your new team cocaptains
are Payson Keeler and Lauren Tanner.
What did you do?
I took the training camp footage of Payson kissing him
and I sent it to Ellen Beals.
I can help you get out of here.
I acknowledge that I'm sick.
- Mrs. Kmet... - No, Bambi!
My name is Bambi.
I don't wanna wait to be with you.
That is one thing that I can give you right now.
Payson, you're amazing. You're so brave.
You're the strongest athlete I've ever seen.
I really don't see the point in this.
Since the dawn of time,
women have gathered in non-hierarchical circles
to affirm and support one another.
They also bludgeoned each other over the head with clubs.
Yes, Payson sure knows how to nail a vault.
But that's about all.
I'm here to mount the equipment, not every boy in the gym.
OK, ladies, this exercise is about positive reinforcement.
Lauren, why don't you take a turn?
OK, Emily, can you say something nice about Lauren's gymnastics?
What? Oh, um...
You really know how to strut your stuff.
Thank you.
Like the runway at a Victoria's Secret fashion show.
OK, not really a compliment, Payson.
Actually, in my world, it is.
And that's the difference between you and me.
In addition to my extreme hotness?
Whoa, whoa, whoa. Girls, hold up.
New idea.
What do you say we do the "Learn My Routine" exercise?
Excuse me, we don't have time to screw around.
We've got a team meet with Dallas in a week.
Exactly. And there is no team
without mutual r-e-s-p-e-c-t.
So, you will each learn one of each other's routines.
You will get inside each other's bodies and minds
and do everything as the other does it,
exactly the way she does it, and in the process,
develop respect for each other gymnastically and otherwise.
You two. I love it! All right, girls, pair up.
Fan-flippin-tastic.
This is gonna be a riot.
Payson couldn't move like me
unless she had ants in her pants. Literally.
Who am I gonna be working with?
What's got two thumbs and choreography
that won the Pacific Coast Classic in 2002?
This gal!
- What? - You can learn my routine.
I was actually thinking that I should
spend some more time on my own gymnastics.
And I was thinking that what you actually need is a good role model.
The NGO filled me in on all the details of your new contract, Emily.
They want me to keep an eye on you.
- Great. - Right?
It takes a village to raise a great gymnast.
And I just want you to know, I'm here for you, Em.
In my family, I always felt all this pressure to be perfect.
I had perfect blonde hair,
I ate perfect little meals of nothing.
I was thin,
my parents were so proud of me,
and I loved it.
That's why I existed,
to be this perfect little reflection of them in the world.
And there are some days where I still want to be that perfect tiny blonde girl.
Because everybody loves that girl.
Even though e was hungry.
Those are the days when I still want to restrict.
Which means I'm still trying to figure out why just being me,
just like this, isn't OK.
Thank you, Suzanne.
Can anyone here relate
to the struggle with perfectionism Suzanne just shared?
Kaylie?
Not really.
I know who you are. You're Kaylie Cruz.
I'm a big fan. I love gymnastics, your gymnastics.
- All gymnastics. - Thanks.
Is it true that a lot of gymnasts struggle with eating disorders?
People assume that. People who don't know anything about the sport.
What are you doing in Boulder?
I finally got sprung from the bin,
and thought I'd come check on my little friend Kayliekins
before I leave for Milan.
Well, don't just stand there, kitten! Get in!
Where are we going?
Saint-Germain-des-Pres for pamplemousse macaroons.
- What? - Oh, you are so cute.
I'd die. Seriously.
Baby, it's time to shed some of this rehab fat.
I don't know which of Darby's big ideas is more stupid:
Making you and me co-captains,
or letting us come and go as we please,
or wasting our time learning each other's routine
before we have a club meet
with the best team in the country.
You only think that Darby lifting all the rules is stupid
because you still approach this sport as a little girl,
not a grown woman.
- Looking good, Max. - Hey.
Hey, yourself. We were starting to think
you changed your mind about training at The Rock.
Not a chance.
Welcome. We're glad you're here.
Not that she'll notice. Payson has no interest in boys,
she's all gymnastics, all the time.
I doubt that.
Nobody is one thing all the time.
I'll catch you guys later.
- If I don't catch you first. - Are you always in heat?
Look, I can't believe
I'm saying this to you of all people,
but for the record, I've got dibs on Max. OK?
Are we in second grade?
For the record, I'm not interested in him or any other boy.
That's right. You're only interested in middle-aged men.
So no weirdness between us?
No more than usual.
What you just did, the story you just told, it was... it was inspired.
It's you, Sasha, you inspire me.
Payson!
Lauren, what did you do?
♪ Make It or Break It 2x13 ♪ The Buddy System Original Air Date on April 11, 2011
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These things always feel a little germy to me.
I'll take germs over muffin top. I gotta drop ten before Milan.
Runway work?
Editorial.
Someone may be the new face of Besos and Company,
and it's between me and Brooklyn Decker.
Wow! You're really back in the game.
Umm, ticky-ticky, tock-tock.
An agent at Ford the other day said,
basically, if you get one or two seasons out of a girl, you're lucky.
Gymnastics is like that, too. There's a tiny window of opportunity.
And they're not even letting me work out.
If you're worried about weight gain,
I have this over-the-counter asthma medication.
Keeps me energized, not munchie.
I shouldn't risk it.
Once I'm back, there's random drug testing.
Yeah.
For now, I'll just have to be large and in charge.
So, what's the dealio with Mr. Hot Stuff Gym Stud?
Austin? No dealio.
He's really freaked out about this whole anorexic thing.
I guess his sister really did have
an out-of-control eating disorder.
Hmm. How sad.
Yeah.
Maybe it was a mistake admitting that I had a problem.
I mean, it got me out of rehab,
but now my parents really think I'm sick.
And they're buying every word that the therapist says.
Like that I'm gonna die if I keep doing gymnastics.
Easy peasy. All you have to do
is turn your parents against the therapist
and you'll be back at The Rock...
...like that.
Whew!
I don't remember being out of breath
when I did that routine in Sydney.
Of course I was 16, and my life was a blur then.
Can I ask you something?
Do you ever feel like
you missed out on being a teenager, or being...
What, in love?
Lauren told me you have a boyfriend.
Had.
I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend or a life anymore.
Which is ironic, since you came here and lifted all of The Rock rules.
Listen, Em, I didn't lift the rules
because I thought having boyfriends was a good idea.
I lifted them because the one thing this sport requires
is absolute self-knowledge.
I know.
You've got to get with it, girl.
You're running out of second chances.
After the back flip, I do a little body roll.
I shake the booty a little bit here.
And then I greet my subjects down there.
And then...
...a perfect double twist.
Your turn.
- All steak. No sizzle. - What?
Congratulations. I've got more sass in my little finger.
They have penicillin for that.
I'm just saying, you look a little weak up there.
I'm every bit as strong as you.
She-Ra, this isn't about strong,
this routine is about ooh-la-la.
So, enjoying the view?
She's like a Vegas show.
All she needs is a head dress and a g-string.
She's a little too obvious for me.
Oh, come on, you wouldn't hit that?
I thought you had it for Payson.
There's definitely something special about her.
So?
Since when did you turn into Susie Matchmaker?
Hello.
I'm just sayin', my buddy Carter got mangled by that girl.
She's a Venus Flytrap. She'll eat you alive.
If I didn't know any better, I'd think you were jealous.
Poor Payson. She just doesn't have "it."
I'm trying to teach her my beam routine,
but you can't teach someone to be sexy.
Or subtle.
So Max, what do you like to do for fun?
OK, ankles, knees, shoulders,
crown of the head. That's good, right?
And Lauren says I don't have "it".
I'll show her "it".
Crud!
Don't let Lauren get to you.
She does silly, showgirl stuff.
You don't need any of that. You're Payson Keeler.
You'll do OK without it.
I've never aimed for "OK."
Well, if you're interested, I could help you help yourself.
Do what?
Not look foolish trying to do Lauren's beam.
And in the meantime, maybe impress a certain new guy in town.
I'm not interested in impressing your buddy Max.
And I'm a serious gymnast who doesn't need
to shake her moneymaker on the beam to get attention.
Well, how about to get gold medals?
'Cause let's face it, Lauren's got the best beam in the country.
Why, just because sex sells?
Sort of.
- Well, I'm not buying. - You're not the customer.
But hey, if sexy scares you,
you just go ahead and do Lauren's beam your way.
Emily, where have you been? It's a half hour past curfew.
I walked the long way home.
You know you're supposed to come home straight from practice, right?
My entire life, you don't care when I come home,
and now I can't go for a walk? Great.
I am off to work at the call center. What are you looking at?
Damon's web page.
No communication, Emily.
I'm not communicating. I'm just seeing what he's up to.
Why do you keep obsessing over Damon's web page?
I thought we agreed, out of sight, out of mind was easier.
Well, it's not.
I said goodbye to him and now I can't see him, ever.
Everything seems like forever, Emily, you're a teenager.
So, my feelings don't matter?
You'd never even kissed a boy until you met Damon.
And then you went on, what, like five dates?
So I'm an idiot then, obviously.
You know, I really don't appreciate this attitude.
Do you think that this is fun for me?
We both signed that agreement with the NGO.
And now I'm trying to be a responsible parent because you asked me to be.
So please, can you just turn off your computer and start studying.
You have your home school finals in two weeks.
I'm sorry.
I know that you miss Damon
and I know that you two care deeply for each other.
But Emily, you're so young,
and you have so much in store for you.
I promise, in time, you'll forget.
So how do we fix this?
I mean, she just has to eat more.
She shouldn't be losing weight anyway.
What she needs is more upper body strength.
Instead of fixing things, why don't we check in
with how Kaylie is feeling today?
Well, um...
I've been thinking a lot,
about what that girl said.
- Suzanne? - Yeah.
Yeah, about what Suzanne said.
About always trying to be perfect for their parents.
And, um...
I... I can actually relate to that.
Do you feel they played a hand in your disorder?
Hey, we didn't play a hand in starving our daughter.
In Kaylie's intake report,
she noted that you put a scale in the living room.
It was Nationals. I put it there as a reminder.
A reminder that she wasn't perfect?
And that you disapproved of her natural size?
Weight management is critical to success in this sport.
But did that create a safe home environment for your daughter?
I'll admit that the scale was a bit extreme.
But our home's always been safe.
I meant, emotionally safe.
Everything I have ever done has been to support her dream.
This is all she's ever wanted.
Or is it all you ever wanted?
Whoa, whoa, whoa. I had my own athletic career.
I fulfilled my dreams.
Sometimes by focusing so intensely on our children's dreams,
we're able to avoid more serious issues
in our marriage or family dynamics.
I'm not gonna sit here and be blamed for trying to be a good father, OK?
Alex...
Thanks for the session, doctor.
Oh, wait, you're not a doctor.
Thank you, occupational therapist.
What's that?
A copy of the training video you stole from The Rock.
Did you go on my computer? That is a violation of my privacy!
And what the hell do you think taking this private video,
altering it, and leaking it to Ellen Beals was?
Besides an unconscionable violation of your friend Payson's privacy?
Not to mention that you used it to ruin a man's career!
I used it to get Sasha out of The Rock which is what you wanted.
Not like this!
What does it matter how I did it?
Because how you did it was wrong.
Since when do you care about right and wrong?
Was it right to tell me that my mother didn't care about me?
Or right that you were secretly giving money to Emily Kmetko?
And what about blackmailing Marty
and probably a hundred other things I don't even know about?
I got the job done.
We have a new coach and you have Summer back.
We both got what we wanted. And your hands are clean.
No, they're not.
I promised Summer,
with God as my witness,
that I would never keep anything from her ever again.
Especially if I found out who leaked this tape.
So what's one more broken promise?
Hey.
I got fresh sea bass, and the most amazing heirloom tomatoes.
I thought I'd make a caprese salad.
Everything all right?
Everything's awesome now that you're here.
♪ She bursts out onto the scene ♪
♪ And she struts her stuff for the magazines ♪
♪ She's tall, cool and sophisticated ♪
♪ Walking the groove... ♪
Come in.
Hey. Dinner's gonna be ready soon.
- OK. - What you listening to?
Uh, just funk, house. I don't know, whatever.
I like to kick out the jams.
Please, no dorky mom dance tonight.
Are you OK?
Do you ever get tired of being the mom-jeans mom?
What?
You know how when Chloe Kmetko walks into The Rock
in one of her spandex things,
and all of the gym dads turn and stare at her 'cause she's so...
Exposed?
I was gonna say sexy.
Is that what you think is sexy?
Other people do. I don't know, I guess.
It's just...
It's like she just has something inside, like a perfume.
Lauren has it too.
It's powerful. It's sizzle.
You don't have to be sexy like Lauren.
What you have is pretty powerful too.
Beauty, grace, integrity.
But you didn't say sex appeal.
I know. I know I'm pretty, Mom.
I know that I can walk down a runway in a fancy dress.
I even know that I can do a pretty dance in a leotard,
but I'm just, just not sexy.
Not in that way.
There's all kinds of sexy.
It's OK. You don't have to be good at everything.
And these are not mom-jeans.
In fact, they drive your father wild.
That's so gross.
Pork chops in five.
- You ready? - Just so we're clear.
I'm not here because I'm the least bit interested in Max
or impressing any guy.
I'm here because...
...this sexy thing scares me.
And I don't like to be scared. Of anything.
And, also, I'd like to wipe that snarky self-satisfied smirk
off of Lauren Tanner spray-tanned face.
Got it.
So go ahead, give me Lauren's routine,
with all the Lauren va-va-voom.
OK, you can't laugh.
I won't laugh.
I mean it. If you laugh, I'm outta here.
Aye-aye, co-captain.
Very funny.
Here. I think this will help.
Show me what you got.
♪ So good when you
♪ look like you should ♪
♪ When you come out to play ♪
♪ All the people say Love your style ♪
♪ Oh, you're fine With some movement divine ♪
♪ Oh, you're looking so tight, tight ♪
- ♪ You've got it right ♪ - ♪ Love your style ♪
♪ You're so good Babe, you're so Hollywood ♪
♪ Just the way you behave All the people say ♪
♪ Love your style, girl ♪
Fine. Just let it out.
I have an idea.
How about we work off the beam.
I want you to get in touch with your own... essence.
As long as it's legal.
Have a seat.
Have you ever thought about what turns you on?
- Nope. No, not legal. - Close your eyes.
Smell this.
Interesting. You're repulsed by vanilla.
It's too sweet.
Neroli oil.
Elegant, spicy,
citrus.
Does nothing for me. What is the point of this?
Sexy is about feeling pleasure with all your senses:
taste, touch, smell.
Close your eyes.
That one's nice.
Cedar. Cedar makes you feel pleasure.
Good. Now focus all your energy in your second chakra.
- Where? - Just below your navel.
This center holds your basic need for sexuality,
creativity and self-worth.
Oh, so you're saying my self-worth is in my bowels?
Have you ever noticed where Lauren holds her energy?
It's all below the waist, free and flowing.
It's free all right.
Walk across the room like Lauren,
centered in your sexuality.
The key is to let your hips be a little lazy,
a little soft.
Soft and lazy? That's totally antithetical to gymnastics.
Get down on all fours.
- Now what are we doing? - Cat energy.
Every woman has some.
The key is to get out of your head.
Come on, be a cat.
Austin, I'm sorry.
Thank you so much for doing this with me,
but it was clearly a mistake.
Come on, you didn't even try.
I know. I know that I may think too much,
I know that I may be too focused.
And that may be my curse.
Boys may never think that I'm sexy,
and Lauren may kick my ass on Friday,
and that may just be something that I have to live with.
And how me liking the smell of cedar
has anything to do with any of this, I have no idea.
Cedar is traditionally used for purification.
You respond to it because you're pure of heart.
This routine has nothing to do with my heart!
So, Maeve, was there any concern
about going back to work so soon after...
Rehab?
No, ma'am. I acknowledged I had a problem
and that I'm committed to recovery and my folks trust me.
They understand that now is my time to make it big as a model.
If I let it slip away, I'll miss my chance.
It's the same thing with gymnastics, actually.
But my therapist doesn't get that.
In fact, he thinks our whole family is screwed up.
He's not even a real doctor.
As a model, there must be intense pressure
to stay rail thin.
Have you ever considered doing something where maybe size isn't an issue?
Well, in our society, size is always an issue.
I mean, look at you. You're not a model
but you're very tiny and perfectly put together.
It's not just a professional hazard.
Every woman feels pressure to be perfect.
Not to the point of starving herself.
Agreed. But you can be healthy and still strive for excellence.
Like Kaylie.
She has the talent to do something extraordinary,
and I'd hate to see some therapist
who's trying to justify his job rob her of that.
I agree completely.
They have to make you think you're screwed up
so you keep coming back and you keep writing checks.
Quite frankly, I don't see any reason why Kaylie can't start training again.
Maybe we can discuss this in private?
Fine. We'll discuss it.
But I'm not gonna sit back and let anyone rob Kaylie of her dream.
That was delicious.
How many women are gorgeous and can cook?
I don't know how we ever lived without you, Summer.
But luckily, now, we don't have to go back
to those dark days ever again.
Right, Daddy?
- Do you wanna talk about it? - What?
Whatever's making you look like you have
the weight of the world on your shoulders.
I've just been thinking about
all the mistakes I've made with Lauren.
You're supposed to teach your children the difference
between right and wrong. Be an example.
I failed to do both.
It's never too late to teach your children the right values.
So, let's say they've done something wrong.
You can't spank a teenager.
And I know grounding does no good at all.
How do you punish them?
At this age, the real punishment
is to make them accountable for their actions.
So if they've done something wrong, they have to make it right,
whatever the consequences.
You always seem to know exactly what to do.
How are you so crystal clear?
About everything?
Prayer helps.
But I also believe in our hearts,
we all know what's right.
It's just having the courage to do it.
Now I do a full-in.
That's great, Lauren. Stretch it out.
Nice swing, and stick it.
Payson, you're a great coach.
You got her to open her shoulder angle with a set drill, right?
Yeah, I thought that that would help her
with the lift into the second flip...
Hi, Max!
- You look strong. - Strong's easy.
It's teachable. Unlike sexy,
which you're either born with or not.
Speaking of not, Payson, how's my beam routine coming along?
I'm about 90 percent there.
Well, maybe it's time to go all the way.
Oh, whoops, I forgot, you don't.
Max, you want to see the new pommel trainer we just got?
Hey, Payson, don't listen to her.
You are sexy.
I think we very well established last night that I'm not sexy,
so spare me.
You're just a quiet kind of sexy?
One of these days you'll wake up and see it.
It wasn't my job to push you into it.
I asked for your help.
It's not your fault that I can't pull it off.
Pure of heart is plenty sexy.
I've noticed the kind of girls you like
and it's not their hearts you're interested in.
What about Kaylie? I liked Kaylie.
It wasn't for her long legs and double D cups.
So, "liked," past tense?
Kaylie needs to focus on healing right now.
The further away she stays from here and me, the better.
She obviously doesn't agree.
I didn't know she was back.
Neither did I.
Good job.
Is that who I think it is?
Kaylie Cruz, National Champion?
Hi, Darby.
How are you?
Great. Really great.
Great! So when are you coming back?
Any day now. And maybe even as soon as tomorrow.
Tomorrow? Really?
Yay! I can't wait to have all my babes ready to crush!
Oops. I better get back to work.
Austin, this is my friend Maeve.
Well, the Corso Como has handsome ragazzi,
but they don't have the likes of you.
Maeve's a model. She's catching a plane to Italy tonight.
Did your doctors clear you to start training again?
Well, I'll leave you lovebirds to duke it out.
I just wanted to see the inside of the infamous Rock.
See you outside.
Not that it's any of your business,
but the only people I need permission from are my parents.
And they're on my side. At least my dad is.
The battle's not between me or your parents, Kaylie.
Stop trying to be a hero, Austin.
You first.
Kaylie! You're back!
Hi.
Hey. Sorry about that.
I had to say hi to everyone.
No worries, doll face. I gotta skedaddle anyway.
But hey, Austin.
Major dreamy. And totally into you.
Totally into saving me, maybe. But that's about it.
Nope. He's the real deal lemon peel.
Don't let him get away.
I don't have time for boys anyway, so...
I know! You gotta get back here training. You are such a star.
So are you, Maeve.
Please, my job is to be a human hanger
and remember to breathe.
But what you do, this is real.
This is talent.
Stay in touch, OK?
Mm-hm.
I am just one international call away.
You ring me any time, day or night for support.
- OK? - OK.
You OK?
Sure, why wouldn't I be?
I don't know. You seemed surprised to see Kaylie.
I'm just surprised she thinks she's ready to start training again.
Maybe she is.
What about you? You ready to do Lauren's routine?
- I think I am. - What changed?
I just thought of all the things I've been scared to do as a gymnast.
And I've tackled them all the same way.
I study every aspect of the move, and I execute it.
Every move in gymnastics is learnable.
Every single one.
I don't have to prove to the world I'm sexy to do her beam.
- I just... - You just have to be Lauren.
Bingo. It's a performance, just like anything else.
You're gonna attack sexuality with military precision?
Kind of.
And in the process, who knows what you might discover,
- hidden deep down inside... - My second chakra?
Don't hold your breath.
Hi. Uh, I was wondering, is Bambi working today?
Uh, no. That's OK.
Can you tell me what sort of establishment this is?
Thank you.
What's wrong?
I have to go.
You can't. We're doing each other's routines in a little while.
Well, Darby said we can come and go as we please, so I'm going.
OK, you have one more hour to polish up your routines,
so use it wisely!
Emily? Hey, have you seen Emily?
Uh... she left.
♪ Stop 'cause you're turning me ♪
♪ Look at the flesh Nights of flesh ♪
♪ It's like a chain reaction Chain reaction ♪
♪ Looking like a supermodel Looking like a supermodel ♪
♪ Look at the flesh Nights of flesh ♪
♪ It's like a chain reaction Chain reaction ♪
♪ Everybody watching me ♪
♪ Stop 'cause you're turning me... ♪
- How did you get in here? - That matters?
- I can explain all of this, honey. - Explain what?
That you're working in a frickin' strip club?
Is this your idea of being a responsible mother?
It's a job, Emily.
And I am being responsible. I'm putting food on the table.
It is not just a job.
It's another reason why I'm not good enough.
It's another piece of a consistently embarrassing life
that you just don't seem to understand!
I don't understand?
I'm the one wearing the vinyl bra, Emily.
You don't have to remind me, Mom.
I'm paying the bills and I'm funding your dream.
Why can't I do anything right with you?
All right people, it's time for "Learn My Routine."
Lauren, you first?
Ready to rock it!
Here I go. With the strong and impressive,
but no-frills bars of Payson Keeler.
Very nice, Lo-Lo.
And now, Payson, are you ready to show Lauren's beam routine?
Where's Payson?
Don't tell me she bailed too?
♪ She bursts onto the scene ♪
♪ And she struts her stuff for the magazines ♪
I told you.
♪ Walking the groove Syncopated ♪
♪ She's the It girl ♪
♪ So plain to see ♪
♪ And we all want to play just like her ♪
♪ She may be overrated ♪
♪ Though one thing's for sure ♪
♪ She's so opinionated ♪
♪ So very complicated ♪
♪ She's got the whole world ♪
♪ She's the latest It girl ♪
♪ I want to play just like her ♪
♪ She may be overrated ♪
♪ But one thing's for sure ♪
♪ She's so opinionated ♪
♪ So very complicated ♪
♪ She's so opinionated ♪
Very nice, Payson.
You really tapped into something.
A very successful exercise!
Maybe you should re-learn your routine...
...from Payson.
Maybe you should go look at yourself in the mirror some more, yeah?
Nice chakra work.
I can't believe I just did that.
I mean, at first I was just being Lauren, and then...
You became Payson: sex goddess.
Oh, God. Was it awful?
If by awful, you mean smokin' hot.
Well, my work here is done.
So... what are you doing after practice?
I hear there's this awesome juice joint around here.
Actually, I need to go see a friend.
OK, sure. No worries.
But maybe you can call me later?
I will definitely call you later.
- OK? - OK.
Please tell me that's a music mix for Summer.
Guess again.
You're not giving that DVD to her.
Yes, I am.
- Dad, you can't! - Watch me.
What are you doing?
I am doing what I should've done long ago.
I'm delivering the full tape of Sasha and Payson
- and making this right. - No! And what about me?
You should have thought of that
when you started manipulating your coach,
your teammates, and me.
But Daddy, you can't!
If you turn that in, if you tell them it was me,
I could be kicked out of the gymnastics world.
And Sasha will come back, and Summer...
I promised Summer I'd tell her the truth.
No! But she doesn't need to know.
You've already taken away one mother.
Please don't take away another.
Daddy, please.
You're all I have left in the world.
You and my gymnastics.
This will ruin me! Is that what you want?
No, I don't wanna ruin you.
But you ruined someone else, Lauren. Do you understand?
I'll never do it again! I swear.
Can we just let this pass? Please.
You're turning over a new leaf and I can too.
I promise you, I promise I can.
But we can't do this anymore.
We won't have to.
I learned my lesson.
I really did. I love you, Dad.
- I'm so sorry. - OK.
OK.
So you think this is all my fault too?
I ruined our marriage, I ruined our daughter.
We are both responsible for our marriage.
And we are both responsible for what happened with Kaylie.
At the very least, for not seeing it sooner
and doing something about it.
And I never told you this,
but I found a trash bag of food
in Kaylie's gym bag.
Food that she was obviously just pretending to eat.
Why didn't you tell me?
Would it have really mattered? Would you have listened?
You're not even listening to the therapist.
Hey. I'm glad you guys are here.
I wanted to talk about when I can start training.
I was hoping tomorrow?
Uh, yeah, we have talked about it.
We've decided that we will trust the therapist for now.
But my therapist is wrong.
You said so yourself.
Kaylie, you admitted you have a problem.
I lied, OK? I would have said anything to get out of that place.
I don't have a problem!
You guys are the ones with the problem!
You're ruining my career!
I am gonna lose everything,
if I don't get back to the gym, right now!
I know you don't understand.
Your world is nothing like mine.
You don't have the NGO breathing down your neck all the time,
and then, whoopsie, your mom forgot to tell you she was working at a strip bar.
Everything I've worked for,
being an Olympian,
being the best...
...is always about to fall apart.
I know you don't want to hear this right now, Emily.
But you're not that different from the rest of us.
I see my dad once a month,
because he's in another state
working to pay for my back surgery.
Kaylie can't even step on a mat right now.
She'd kill to be able to train.
- That's different. - Is it though?
Pain is pain, Emily.
And we're all giving up things for this dream.
And until you accept that those things,
your mom, the NGO, whatever,
are things that you can't control,
that the only thing you can control is getting to practice
and always just giving it your all,
you really are going to fall apart.
I had sex with Damon.
And I'm in love with him.
Then why are you so sad?
Because...
I want my dream too.
And I know that I can't have both.
Which do you want more?
I want to go to the Olympics.
But what if I don't make it and then I lose Damon?
I just don't know that this all would've been worth it.
You can't drain your energy
constantly thinking about all of these possible future what-ifs.
You have to focus your mind on what you want to happen.
You know what I want?
I want to go to the Olympics.
And I want to do it with you right there by my side.
I want that too.
Come here.
♪ You made me feel like a harbor ♪
♪ You made me feel like a fortress ♪
♪ This is the place where I fell ♪
Hello?
Who is this? Is this Maeve Benson's phone?
Yes, it is. Who is this?
Uh, it's a friend of hers. It's Kaylie.
Is she there? Can I please speak to her?
Maeve...
Maeve passed away.
What? How?
I... I just saw her!
She had a heart failure in the Denver airport.
She's gone.
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